How I miss being up till 2 in the morning, just surfing the net, organizing my stuff, having my own time, slacking the night through. Just 3 more weeks and all those will be back!! No one has any idea how it feels to finally have free time to just breezed through the days. I should probably stop putting my laptop on the bed, the fan's gonna spoil and make weirdly loud hauling noise. Uh but I'm getting a new one next year anyway pft. Managed to convince my mom my previous laptop that she's using is getting too old, so I should get a new one and she can use mine :)

Spent almost 2hours trying to decide what clothes to bring for the weekend trip. Did I mentioned it'd be the first time traveling without my family. Feel so much like an adult now, but I honestly hate the hassle of booking the tickets and hotels and procedures urghhh troublesome X489538943. I should get down to booking the bangkok trip soon too, even with the bombing and whatever crap people are pulling there, hotels are fully booked on the days I'm going. Thankgod for connections, a friend of mine knows the CEO of Amari Hotels. Ain't that some fucking awesome shit. Okay so anyway I still haven't decided how many days I wanna stay in Bangkok and Phuket. Tough schedule with that sillyboy since he only has 10days break, in that 10days we have the Thailand trip and he has to go with his mom and grandma to China. How am I going to do this! Oh but I've made my travel itinerary already! So freaking excited!!! Gill I hate you for bailing out :(



Maybe I wasn't ready afterall, maybe I'm just too difficult to live with, maybe I just don't deserved to be loved. Everytime someone tries to get close, or show me extreme love, all my walls spring up immediately, pushing people away. I don't want this, I can't control it. It's not like I don't wish to be loved or cared for. Oh well.. But after today I realized all I needed is time alone too, I simply can't be tied down for too long. Guess it suffocates me a little.

Reminder - Have to learn how to stop hurting the ones that love me



Hahahahaha he's gonna kill me for this. But look at his face it's just major lmaorofl! Never fail to make me laugh like a silly cat :)


Okay time for bed. Can't believe I made an appointment at 845am to collect my passport, like what was in brian! Such a chore, oh well.. either I do it, or goodbye getaway trips. Goodnight lovelies.

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