Gonna get my calculator phone back now!!

&& school holidays extend one more week due to H1N1!

yay get more time to do what I was SUPPOSED to do during the initial two weeks holidays. :)

people, if you happen to have the symtons of H1N1, please kindly freaking go see a doctor, and not be so selfish and drag, still go around meeting more people.it's simply an irresponsible act, you never know who might be affected cause of you.

Screw HP! Too bad, I am sending you to alexandra tmr.
I can't access msn and hotmail at all, so I won't be online, and won't be able to view your mails.

Even though I completely dislike her, and is the most obnoxious person in the world.
This song is really meaningful.
& I'm so proud of you, Ms. :)





Keep it coming,
but I'll keep on pushing.
Remembering how far I've made,
this won't be the end.
I am more to this.

TO-DO LIST

1. Organise my life, and my last week of holidays
2. Drink more water, my skin is starting to itch
3. Exercise exercise exercise stop being a couch potato
4. Sleep early, early as in before midnight, not 2am early
5. Save money (very possible)



I'm addicted to a life of material
It's some kind of joke
I'm obsessively opposed to the typical



nothing tastes as good as thin feels
credit: thinspire



*puppy dog eyes*
anyone?
hahahaha.

Lets just say today isn't a good day.. AT ALL.


I will replace any vulgarities with 'fish' kay..


1. The pair of heels that I've been eyeing for since last year, is on FISHING sale, but there's only one last pair left, and guess what?! It's not my size!

2. I dropped my beloved but ultra-lousy phone, and the inner screen cannot be displayed, sent for repair, wouldn't get back till 5 working days, and all my latest contacts are not in my SIM, cause I am so fishing smart not to update my SIM.

3. I feel so insecure without my cellphone.

4. Had to go back to vivo to repair my phone, causing me to be late for my uncle's birthday dinner. I HATE BEING LATE FOR FAMILY STUFF. They mean so much to me yknow.

5. The pathway to my aunt's is sealed, so I had to walk ONE WHOLE FISHING ROUND to get to the other pathway.

6. I feel so insecure with my spare phone with hardly anyone's contacts.

7. I miss my calculator phone :(
& I want a blackberry bold..

8. you can call me pampared child, but I am sorry I am just not used to not having things going my way.

9. so I didnt use that much vulgarities afterall.

10. Who wants to go heels shopping with me?? :)


yes, I've never been in love.

"We are just friends. Several times now, I have fallen asleep intertwined with you. Cheek to cheek, even lip to lip--just feeling your breath on my skin. We go no further. Today we went for a walk after a summer pour, and I could feel the warm steam rising from the streets. Now tonight, I sleep alone. It's probably healthy because when I'm tangled up with you I can hardly sleep at all. I spend the whole night on fire, quietly smoldering most of the time. Except when you pull me closer and rub your soft scruffle up and down my neck and chest. Or when you grab me by the hip bone and sink your thumbs into my flesh, sending electric chills up and down my body. Or when you pull me into you, sliding your fingers down my spine until they press the small of my back (chills, again). Or when your lips find the back of my neck and you mumble about how good I smell. Those are the times that the smoldering gives way to a blazing flare and all I can do is hope for a nap the next day. But not tonight. You're there and I'm here. I could never tell you this, but every night your body isn't pressed against mine, I have to pack pillows around myself just to fall asleep. But we are just friends, and I'm sure you sleep fine without me."
- Le Love


As selfish as this may sound,
this two love simply cannot coexist.

Since we've never made this clear,
why not we just finished it once and for all.
I understand how this is all a blur,
not like you've ever wanted this for real.
Why let this go on,
when none of us can live out of our self-denial.

But just know that,
you've made a mark in my precious heart.
I will always remember how you made me smile,
bringing butterflies in my stomach.
Knowing every ways to bring me closer to you.
Every touch.. you make me want to hold on to it forever.
Tried so hard not to show how much I enjoy your presence,
simply too afriad of the reality.
Sorry darling, I apologised for being me.

Now I've found someone I treasure more than this,
and this is the sacrifice I have to make.



and love..
such a silly game we play
love.. who can tell me I am wrong.

my kind of perfect relationship



thankyou LeLove.

Because I Said So is quite a romantic movie.

I have never been so sure of what I want.
nothing else matters now.
nothing.


every prayer, every cry,
you alone satisfy..


i <3 my latest tweet.

Exhausted with all that's been going on, now holidays here, it's time to clean up a little. Back to being me, cheena-free, stress-free, organized, healthy, no vulgarities. I know I'm going to splurge at Borders once again, that explains why I'm a member :)
Going back to my skating and reading by the pool-side days, which I totally miss.


note: make time to go back to Jones the grocer @dempsey
miss the pancakes..


off to plan my holidays now.

I know it's still 2 more days to my term break, and I still have a practical test tomorrow, but I simply can't help not to catch the vibe of the holiday mood. All the talk about going overseas and crazy shopping spree over dinner, got us so excited, it feels as though we're going to wake up the next morning and board the plane to a weekend getaway! Everyone in my family kind of need that now. Fast-paced, busy, stressful life, be it students or the working adults, can I say we deserve a break?
a place filled with fresh air, museums, great shopping, delicious food and lovely hotel.
planning..


oh & thankGod for financial blessings! Uncle just gave me a sum of money, 'cause he says he hasn't seen me in the longest time (sorry peipei, school is just too overwhelming). & my allowance is going to increase to $800 soon! I feel so blessed!!


iaminlovewiththefeelingofholdingtonsofshoppingbags :)

WARNING: image-heavy post
I present to you, my guilty pleasures..

ONTD
listography.com
avant-garde fashion
ilovefake.com































french celebs <3










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if only this is part of it,




and continue being a..



back to mugging.
send me starbucks belgian waffle with caramel frappe?

You were supposed to wake me up on time with Hey Hey Girl blasting out loud, why did you just vibrate once, you failed me and I am totally upset. I bet you didn't know how much I want to go for morning pm. If you were just an alarm clock, I would have threw you on the ground and jumped on you a million times, but you have other uses.. and I adore my calculator phone too much to do so.
oh please let it work tomorrow my love..

I apologised for my sudden emotional outbreak just now, I was at a point of rage and disappointment. But I won't take back what I've said. What is said cannot be unsaid, and it's the way it is anyway.



From now on,
let go, let god..

I HATE MY GROUP. SCREWED TO THE CORE.

I wouldn't say it's due to a particular someone, matter fact, this is a freaking GROUP project, if only every particular someone can get the meaning of G-R-O-U-P.
& i'm losing you, but if thats the way you want it to be, so be it. You suck as a person, a friend, the head, and as a partner. You think you're always in the right, let it be.

Correction, you don't suck. Just.. changed, from the happy, joyful, carefree but still smarter, to the emotional, permanent serious face, stressful person. I don't know you anymore. and that, sucks.

urghhhhh!

Currently: Tearing while watching drama series, touching love story
Wish: Picnic with you now
Need: bag, shoes, blazer jacket, heels, tops, skirts
Get Rid: Fats & going-to-be empty account

Forever: memories to keep, & you to hold

1. I'm making a little more effort than I did in my schoolwork. But I keep giving in to my flesh, I get distracted and tempted too easily, by my computer, teevee, beloved gadgets, and my crazy addiction in making lists. (that's why i <3 listography) You can't believe how uneasy I get when I feel that I'm outta control of my own life. No I am not a control freak. Really. Self-control swee, self-control and study, it all starts with a 's'.

2. I'm starting to love spending time with myself more nowadays. Maybe it's due to the busy fast-paced life I've been leading ever since poly life started, I hardly have the time to stop and just watch the world passed by me. I miss doing that, although people might think that it's better to be moving with the world, than wasting time stopping and just watch, it doesn't matter. I simply want to plug in my ipod, get addicted by Lykke Li's album, walking by the path seeing people doing the same, that makes me smile.

3. What used to matter, that I used to make such a big fuss over, hardly matters to me now. Come to think of it, I was so silly back then. I guess.. I've grown, for real this time. I can really let it go, even though it happened again, I dropped it. So proud of myself. It's time I put away my childish ways. (that doesn't mean I'm giving up on the fairytales and happily-ever-afters, jason), because I don't want to stop believing in love. So afraid I will before I've had a go with it.

4. I miss spending time with G, going crazy over nonsense and stupid questions.

5. Not used living with this amount of fats on me, they are kind of in the way, literally. I need to lose fats, not because of what people say, but I don't feel comfortable with something blocking my movement. Haha I sound like I'm the size of a sumo-wrestler.

6. ONENOTE ROCKS. I have alot of random thoughts during random time of days. When I'm out, I'll scribble them down on my phone, but when I'm with my laptop, I'll put them down in ONENOTE. & it simply rocks! Haha.

7. I have to STOP taking cabs, SERIOUSLY.



hands down, I'm too proud for love
but how we move from A to B, it can't be up to me
I'm a little bit, little bit, a little bit in love with you.
but only if you're a little bit, little bit, little bit in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me.

Supposed to be studying now, have been wasting 2hours in search of the ringtone blair/serena use in the show. Damn I'm too addicted to gossipgirl. But who can resist?! Those glamourous dresses, cute bags, ABSOLUTLY STUNNING heels and candy-coloured gadgets, with lovely dream homes, sorry life like that, not within my reach, well for now :)
haha call me crazy.


kay HAVE TO GO STUDY. for real this time.
oh btw, if you happen to know that ringtone, text me.

xoxo
i am, THAT addicted.



It feels quiet inside, no not emptiness silly. It's.. peace. I just know. The difference from now and then, I sense it.


I wanna spend my days in your presence lord,
bowed before your throne.