I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street


Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known

Obsessed with Cookie Dozer, it's extremely addictive!
They make me crave for Famous Amos, at a point of time I could smell it! Not even faking that. My boy thinks I'm crazy now.


Starving would be an understatement now.
All I had since morning was half a ham sandwich and KOI passion aloe vera green tea (not a fan of bubbleteas, don't get the hype over KOI wateva~), but that fatso is tired and sleeping on my comfy bed; I don't care what he says his bed is hard and un-comfy compared to mine, cause his house is under renovation, all the drilling ZOMG my ears this morning. Sigh I can't bear to wake him up.


Should I get a ______ but my mom's against it tsk. I really want one tho, not cause it's trendy or crap it never was period. But the painnnnn I'm such wuzz.


Although I lost like 3kg and my body's like sorta skinny now my face's still puffy like shit. Ugh my puffyface.


Still jobless. Ice-cream shops or back to Orgo?


Shit I complain too much in this post.


MY STOMACH'S MAKING NOISE SO GET UP!

There always comes a point in time when we’re so tired and so full of self-doubts, that we’re no longer sure why we’re fighting for whatever it is we’re fighting for.

It was never perfect, there was never a perfect. Blinded by the blissfuls images and playful nature, I have been so silly and I'm glad now :)

Can't wait for tonight with the boy <3
Happy 6th Month!

This time, I don't need another perfect line.
Because tears can't escaped, all choked up within.

How I miss being up till 2 in the morning, just surfing the net, organizing my stuff, having my own time, slacking the night through. Just 3 more weeks and all those will be back!! No one has any idea how it feels to finally have free time to just breezed through the days. I should probably stop putting my laptop on the bed, the fan's gonna spoil and make weirdly loud hauling noise. Uh but I'm getting a new one next year anyway pft. Managed to convince my mom my previous laptop that she's using is getting too old, so I should get a new one and she can use mine :)

Spent almost 2hours trying to decide what clothes to bring for the weekend trip. Did I mentioned it'd be the first time traveling without my family. Feel so much like an adult now, but I honestly hate the hassle of booking the tickets and hotels and procedures urghhh troublesome X489538943. I should get down to booking the bangkok trip soon too, even with the bombing and whatever crap people are pulling there, hotels are fully booked on the days I'm going. Thankgod for connections, a friend of mine knows the CEO of Amari Hotels. Ain't that some fucking awesome shit. Okay so anyway I still haven't decided how many days I wanna stay in Bangkok and Phuket. Tough schedule with that sillyboy since he only has 10days break, in that 10days we have the Thailand trip and he has to go with his mom and grandma to China. How am I going to do this! Oh but I've made my travel itinerary already! So freaking excited!!! Gill I hate you for bailing out :(



Maybe I wasn't ready afterall, maybe I'm just too difficult to live with, maybe I just don't deserved to be loved. Everytime someone tries to get close, or show me extreme love, all my walls spring up immediately, pushing people away. I don't want this, I can't control it. It's not like I don't wish to be loved or cared for. Oh well.. But after today I realized all I needed is time alone too, I simply can't be tied down for too long. Guess it suffocates me a little.

Reminder - Have to learn how to stop hurting the ones that love me



Hahahahaha he's gonna kill me for this. But look at his face it's just major lmaorofl! Never fail to make me laugh like a silly cat :)


Okay time for bed. Can't believe I made an appointment at 845am to collect my passport, like what was in brian! Such a chore, oh well.. either I do it, or goodbye getaway trips. Goodnight lovelies.